The Worst Mom Ever

I know he is just trying to get his way. And I know I must keep the boundaries and follow-through. However, this constant crying...makes me feel like the worst mom ever.

Some days I feel like the worst mom ever. Don't get me wrong. Some days I feel like the best mom ever, but today was not one of those days.

Or actually, maybe I was a bit schizophrenic today. We had our ups and downs. After one meltdown, we played with rubber stamps and all was well. A short 30 minutes later, he was back in tears. Yes, he was overtired, but it didn't make me feel any better.

My son is almost 3.5 years old. In his short life, he has tested my patience more times than I can count. I cannot even begin to imagine what a simple day without a tantrum looks like. Okay, I exaggerate. I have those days. But again, today was not one of those days.

He is the most stubborn child I have ever known. And trust me, I have known a lot. I worked in the childcare field for over a decade. I thought I had seen stubborn. Clearly, I was mistaken. If God gives us only what we can handle, apparently, he thinks I can handle a whole lot...and I am not sure I am cut out for the job.

Today, he cried for about 30 or so minutes because he wanted to look at some photographs. Thing is, he wanted to only see them with me, not with Daddy, not with his sister, just me. I had told him it was time for bed and no stalling. He was not having it. In the end, I did not relent - no photograph looking - and he ended up asleep. Seriously though, prior to his peaceful slumber, I wanted to BASH MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL....HARD...MULTIPLE TIMES.

About a month ago, he cried in the for 40 minutes because he wanted to go to the pumpkin patch. He cries if you tell him he can't have what he wants.

The irony? He cries less when he actually hurts himself. The other night, my daughter accidentally closed the door on his fingers. It must have scraped because it pulled some skin. It looked really painful. Total crying time? FIVE whole minutes and he was off running again.